Turning 29, watching the ‘The Handmaid’s Tale’, and setting up the blog.
It has been an interesting couple of days. I am not sure if it’s because I’ve recently turned 29 years old, and maybe (deep inside) I have some weird concern about not being in my twenties anymore, but I finally made some time for this post. Doing the #May1Reboot and launching thatleomartinez.com was big step for me (aww, look at me – I’m growing up, I’m showing the world some of the things I do). However, that is not enough. I am clear that when it comes to what I do, creating content and showcasing your skills is key. Coming up with a concept and a plan for the blog for this site has been an adventurous ride for me, with challenges and realizations. I am starting this 3 Little Things blog to share projects that I create or am part of, to have a channel of self-expression, and also to have a place I can share opinions or things I learn along the way.
I figured to start things off I would share this adventurous process with you.
3 Stages of Making 3 Little Things
The Pressure: Time has come to make something out of yourself, so don’t f*ck it up.
All of my life I’ve always been aware of what I wanted to do, of how ‘what I wanted to do’ evolved into something else, and also finding ways to make it happen. I would investigate, have a plan in my head, and always found activities that took me closer to achieving my goal. I’d teach myself things and spend sleepless nights on personal projects. Some projects I even discarded out of frustration because they didn’t turn out the way I wanted.
That was the way I was raised. Always focus on the fact that you need to make something out of yourself. To not surprise, I noticed that this made me put a lot of pressure on myself.
When it came to the creation of this blog, or many other creative projects in the past, it was no different. I wanted to choose a name that didn’t feel idiotic, confusing, and that actually said something about what I am trying to do. A blog that I was able to use as a platform for research, training, opinions, and self-expression. To start I drafted some ideas and starting putting together some concepts.
Then, I started questioning things. What if I am not able to create content that is interesting enough? Is my English good enough to be doing this? I probably should just getting better at ‘this’ and better and ‘that’. I would continuously hear conflicting voices in my head (and from other people) that said that “yes, you are ready and have something to say” or “are you?…really? are you sure that’s what you are trying to say. Maybe you still some much to learn”.
The Avoidance: It’s all in my head, it’s all in my head.
For a long time I felt that I was ‘new’ at everything. I would find myself hoarding all this information, all this knowledge, feeling that it wasn’t enough for me to put in practice. Sitting at my desk, with all the intentions of creating things, but then eventually getting distracted by other people’s creations. All these ideas in my head, bouncing all around and keeping me awake at night. I would question my communication skills and my voice because of the fear of being misunderstood or making no sense.
With this blog, something similar happened. I would do little improvements here and there, but mostly all the ideas, concepts and plans were in my head. I honestly would create content in my head and link them to one another… IN MY HEAD. Finally, one day defining my personal brand, I found a concept that felt right for the blog and had potential. I found myself inspired by my favorite Swedish prover, that in English translates to something like “all good things come in three”
The Realization: 3 little things to say and “Nolite te bastardes carborundorum, bitches”.
After a while, I finally decided on “3 Little things”. I will not get into the strange reason of why I love the number 3 and the meaning, but I just thought that this proverb embodied a positive twist (usually you hear that bad things come in three) and gave me a sense that I could write at least three things about any subject, and possibly get to some to helpful conclusions. Still, even after finding a concept and feeling more comfortable with the idea, things were not happening. Until today.
Thank you for making it this far into this post, by the way.
Somehow, maybe because all the sentimentalism of being 29 and looking back at my life I found myself ready to sit here and write. When I was younger I would use writing as a channel of self-expression and sadly lost it the moment I started traveling and moved non-Spanish speaking countries. I think that has been slowly changing, and the concern about writing in another language has changed too. The reason I have 4 things to remember when expressing yourself in another language still live on this blog, is because the post is a reminder to myself that it is a normal process that many people go through.
There are so many things that I have accomplished in my career, and there is so much to do still. I don’t own an absolute answer to anything, and the only way to find my voice (specially in a second language) is just to speak. I’ve come to the realization that I have things to say and that whatever I don’t know I have the potential to learn and talk about it. I have made the conscious decision of putting myself out there in the scary world on the Internet just to get all these ideas and knowledge out my head. All with the hope that blogging will help me improve my skills, learn new things, and hopefully for my ideas and finding to help others.
Also as a channel for self expression. I was watching ‘The Handmaid’s Tale’ episode where she discover the message on the wall that says “Nolite te bastardes carborundorum” and was just thinking about the comfort of creating something that might not mean anything to anybody or might be gibberish but has meaning to you. Creating something that gives you comfort and fulfills you in some kinda way.
The intention behind 3 Little Things blog is to discover new tools, find inspiration, communicate the fun and the challenges behind a process, or just tell share creative ideas so I can sleep at night. I am not sure if this blog post is something that you found helpful, but if it was please let know. What are some of the stages that you have been through in the past to achieve a project? Did you struggle communicating you ideas in another language? Share your experiences with me in the comments, I would love to know!